“girl you ain’t crazy, you’re just depressed”

-bad days. we all have them, but what happens when you start to have too many? Recognizing that you know who you are better than anyone else, so you would know if something is bothering you, right? You cannot put your finger on it, but you know something is off, mentally especially. You begin to feel different, you begin to notice that you continuously have a great deal of sadness, and you are not even sure why; but as each day passes, you put those intense sad emotions on the back burner, because you were taught “everything will be okay,” “women are suppose to be strong” or the infamous “you got this!” But you see, sometimes WE DON’T HAVE IT! However, each, and every day, you put a smile on that beautiful face because how can you even explain to anyone whats bothering you, when you don’t even know yourself.  But you see, you do know whats wrong….

…you are depressed! I know, I know, I know…you never would have imagined YOU out of all people would be depressed, because of course you would know if you are depressed right? WRONG! We miss so many vital signs of the beginning stages of depressions, which is why we as women have a hard time accepting its truth. Maybe it began from that break-up you never got over, or maybe it was that friendship that you thought would never end, or even that sexy dress you wanted to fit into, but few pounds over the years didn’t let you.  More often than some, we often sink into depression more because we as women don’t ever want to be presumed as “not having it together.” I can speak from my own personal experiences that I wasn’t always the one that would say when something in my life was not going okay. I would pretend and walk around as though everything was together, but literally inside I was falling apart, crumbling. Sinking into a dark place that I had never visited forced me to talk to someone who then gave me permission to allow myself that it is absolutely “okay to be not okay all the time.” 

we as women, it is in our DNA to take on so many tasks daily that test our strengths. We tend to believe that we have to be strong 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and; that is, FALSE. Allow yourself that time to recognize fully that even the strongest breaks down, but its what we do with the pieces to rebuild is what matters.